The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) is planning to devote research dollars to the debunked myth that vaccines cause autism â legitimizing stigma not only around vaccines, but around autism itself.
Matthew Shallenberger, father to an 11-year-old autistic son in Tennessee, says this myth is harmful because âit treats autism as some dreadful disease to avoid at all costs.â
Parents in the Texas community where an unvaccinated child died of measles last month, have continued to resist vaccines in the name of vague potential harms, including autism.
Shallenberger finds this bewildering: âI would much rather my son be alive, healthy and autistic than dead from a preventable childhood illness. Itâs not even a decision, really. There is only one choice for me: vaccinate my kids.â
Parents including Shallenberger are in the odd position of defending their decision to vaccinate â even though there is no evidence of a link between vaccines and autism. The myth, based on a 1998 study that was later retracted due to ethical concerns and falsified data, has been regaining traction since Covid-19 sparked debates over vaccine safety. Robert F Kennedy Jr, who was recently appointed as the US health and human services secretary, has also publicly suggested that autism may be linked to vaccination.
Lynne Peskoe-Yang, a 34-year-old Massachusetts-based journalist with autism, says the mythâs persistence illustrates something disturbing about how the world sees autistic people â that because they are different, they must be contaminated somehow.
âIt fits really well into other kinds of beliefs about health that really boil down to morals more than science,â Peskoe-Yang said.
Autism spectrum disorder is defined by persistent social difficulties as well as repetitive behaviors and interests, sometimes shaped by heightened sensitivity to stimuli like noises, textures and touch, according to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders.
The âspectrumâ refers to the variety of ways people fit this definition. Many autistic people make it to adulthood without a diagnosis â despite the challenges that come even with mild cases, they are able to live independently. Others require lifetime support. While autism as a disability is defined by impairments, it is also associated with strengths, including dedication, focus and creativity in the workplace.
Even in more challenging cases, parents of autistic children find it repugnant that other parents are risking their own childrenâs serious illness or death, ostensibly to avoid the condition.
Kate Abarca, a retired occupational therapist in South Carolina, says that learning to understand her sonâs autism was immensely rewarding. Caring for him made her a better therapist, and advocating for him helped her overcome her shyness. Now 35, her son Benjamin Beals is beloved in his community. He lives in a semi-independent facility and is known for his karaoke performances.
Abarca realized early that her sonâs difficulties stemmed from her own inability to understand his needs. When he was an infant, she says he screamed constantly and would kick and bite her when she was trying to care for him.
ââI came to recognize his actions as self-defense against me providing caregiving that he perceived as an assault,â she said.
Jonathan Knapp, 71, a podcaster in Indiana known by the stage name Johnny Profane, agrees that some of the difficulties associated with autism are more manageable if you understand their cause.
âAny child will start screaming in a supermarket given the right stimuli,â he said. Knapp, along with others contacted for this story, suspects that anti-vaxxers see autism as a combination of exaggerated stereotypes stemming from misunderstood behaviors.
Knapp was diagnosed with autism at 63. While the diagnosis is still stigmatized, Knapp says that understanding why he felt different his whole life has been a blessing.
Emir Lopez, a 32-year-old working in IT in Massachusetts, also sees his autism diagnosis as a gift. Lopez said when he was diagnosed as a child, his parents hid it. He connected the dots himself studying psychology in college. When his mother confirmed he had autism, Lopez realized there actually was ânothing wrongâ with him. He was ânormalâ â just autistic.
Hearing parents fret over vaccines causing autism âjust makes me so angryâ, says Lopez, adding: âAutistic people, weâre very logical, so that blows my mind even more.â Lopez remembers a particularly upsetting instance when his fatherâs former girlfriend told him he might not have autism had he not been vaccinated.
Eventually, Lopez became so fed up with the stigma he decided to disclose his autism on social media with the joke âvaccines are just computer updates for me.â
A 37-year-old autistic sound engineer said he finds misinformation so disturbing he loses sleep over it, adding that anti-vaxxers are not âentitledâ to âtheir own set of factsâ. He echoed Lopezâs sentiment that this cognitive dissonance can be especially distressing for autistic people: âIt saps your energy away. You lose your appetite and your body temperature changes. Itâs a drastically physical thing.â.
Knapp, too, said heâs lost days replaying social media conversations with anti-vaxxers over and over in his head.
While Lopez is troubled by misunderstandings over autism, he says heâs most concerned over declining vaccination rates.
âPeople need to vaccinate. This is life or death. People are dying. Babies are dying!â